What is love….love to me at this point is not being able to shake you, or in a sense the feeling of you. Sounds confusing but what I’m trying to say is I can’t get you away from me. Sounds bad I know but as you say “I constintly have my foot in my mouth” its not what it looks like. I mean it in a good way, in a way where I can’t even function when you’re not around me at certain points. You and I are very independent people and I love that. But sometimes when you’re not around I find myself reaching for you as if I’m going to break down because you’re not around. Like when I’m at the store and I don’t have you to hold my hand, when I’m with friends and I don’t have you to lean on or not make me feel alone when things get awkward or if there’s people I don’t know. Or when I see other couples out and I don’t have you to be there next to me. I hates those moments. Dont get me wrong I love my space and being alone but sometimes I really can’t function without you. We’ve had countless arguments, not fights but “arguments”. And I swear you’ve wanted to kill me and I’ve wanted to do the same but I honestly can’t shake you, I can’t imagine this life or any other one I’m in with out you in it. So that’s what I think love is I know it sounds super retarded but at the moment that’s how I feel, as if you and I are one and without you I’m not whole.
"To live without you, only that would be the real torture".